A gift from the Universe

It is supposed to be early spring in Britain now, London? Not so much… it’s 9am, it’s dark, cold and my class is cancelled, great! Let’s finish that Sandel’s lecture on affirmative action, let’s listen to some old skool techno (still trying to educate myself on electronic music, that I don’t know shit about) and read a bit of this new book I got: Personal Power through Awareness. Awareness… Do you reckon you are aware of you and your actions? Think it twice… of how you perceive yourself? of how you perceive external energy? of how others perceive you and you perceive them? Think it three, four and five times! So many things we ought to be aware of! so many distractions that later become anguishes and the result is a complete distortion of reality. However, at the end of the day we are all distorted… by media, marketing, etc. Couple of week ago I believed I made decisions, that I could choose but thanks to some cigarettes in the cold, after some express debates and reflections in the smoking area now I see it clearly; everything has been chosen already, and not precisely by us.
Thinking about all of this, plus the weather, plus a complete wasteful week off uni, wearing off some chemicals from my body and mind… I don’t feel nearly as cheery and motivated as I could or should?
Finally I put myself together and get out of the house for my next class at 2pm: magazine’s design. As I walk from Camden St way to Euston I feel depersonalizated, I don’t feel like myself, I feel walking as an ant; hurrying up, the hour, I’m still early, as I walk I wanna faint and disappear….

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The amazingness of the books I’m lately buying, pretty randomly, is not measurable. Call me crazy but I can truly feel how the universe is sending me all of this information at the amazing price of 0.01GBP (2.76 w/postage) per book. This morning I read 2 chapters from which I got some excerpts:

the more you can become aware of other people's energy, the more aware you can become of your own inner guidance.

learn to see how your energy is affecting others.

learn how to observe others by being silent.

assume an attitude of confidence, and TRUST THE INFO U R RECEIVING!! doubt can be a friend if it keeps pushing you to become more accurate and precise in what u sense, as long IT DOESNT STOP YOU FROM CONTINUING.

begin by believing in what you are sensing.

do not hold expectations of what you will experience (idealization?)

do not judge your initial attempts but simply let any impressions come in.feedback is a very important part of ur reality as actions create reactions.

~here comes the best bit....!~

as you tune into others, open your heart, and embrace them with a thought of love, not criticism.Imagine an unloving, critical person tuning into someone's energy. The other person would not open (even subconsciously or on energy level) to reveal any information, for that critical energy would feel like an intrusion. !!!!!! HEAVY SHIT!!!

Then imagine a gentle, caring, and loving soul seeking information. The other person would open to that warmth and bask in that love.if you discover what is unique, is free, open, and loving about everyone you know and meet, you will discover new ways that you yourself may become more free, open and loving. !!!!! HARD STUFF!

if you want to see clearly the world you live in, you will need to be willing to see life from other people's perspectives. as u do so, remain open and nonjudgmental, keeping a sense of discovery, love, and adventure . :)))

IMAGINATION IS THE MOST POWERFUL ENERGY-SENSING TOOL.

unbounded by belief structures, imagination is one of your most powerful energy-sensing devices.

when u make things up, u often do it with a sense of joy and play, in a state of relaxation, this is a highly intuitive state.

when you come from the lighter energy of playfulness, when there is less heaviness or seriousness around the outcome, you are often more accurate in what you sense.if you don’t know how to do something, pretend that you do, for the subconscious does not know the difference between pretending and what is truly happening.

As I walk, I remember everything I read this morning and I start playing; I fill my head up with wonderful thoughts and I thank the universe for the opportunity of being here in this amazing land.
I keep walking and I smile at people and they smile at me, by the time I’m at Euston road I look to my right and there is a bus full of children, 7 years-old perhaps? One of them start waving his hand at me with a huge smile that could light up a dark room, I salute him from outside and smile as I look to the floor with a feeling of if I did something impulsively random but fun, when I look to the right again it was not one but all of the children waving their little hands at me and smiling in the kind of joy only a 7year-old (or someone on srooms) can experience and show so well.
This is it, I’m lost, I’m lost in joy, and I don’t remember or care about the weather, the aftermath, and the controlling media anymore. All I can think of is love, how the universe loves me unconditionally and how bad I’ve paid in return.